The Bereaved Joy

Sitting in the middle of a vast green land with kids all around playing and laughing out loud at their moments of carefree joy, when I can pretend to lose my memories and be moved by those innocent laughter of kids playing around.
Even when there is nothing positive to hold on, you can always turn to holding on to the kid inside you and you will find how beautiful it makes you feel. In this walk to adulthood, there are times when you actually think you want to be kept protected from those who keep pushing your strength low. Someone who can make you see the silver lining from within, your darkest closet is no more the safe haven but the compassion of that one person.
But what if, that special soul leaves you in the middle of the crossroad and expect you to deal with everything on your own. That is the time of self reclusion.

The Run before her Wedding-2

She was just getting settled in his life after graduating as an Engineer. She didn't want to be a burden on anybody as soon as she ended those final days of college. Saying goodbye to an old college life and hello to reality. It was a but awkward to her that how politics could run the game even in this small scale miniature life of her. She was just recruited and also had her own self established freelance services going. She was happy. It was a year later that she could actually see herself on a promising situation that most of her batch mates would envy. She, on the other hand saw things little different. She always cared for people who have been through a lot. Thinking that it's her job to help them overcome their misery but little did she know that this was stupid. Having good caring friends' circle and atmosphere at home didn't allow to serve at the minutest part of the outdoor reality. She took everything good for granted. When now, she started different, she could give almost anything to see people being nice to her. On job politics ate her entire confidence but she build it up for herself each day everyday. She was just passing her days alone, not that she didn't have friends but because she wanted her crush back. Her crush turned boyfriend who she turned down for a bigger good. She knew had done the right thing but now she was alone. Little she knew that back in those days when her two best friends would cheer her up keep her out of misery will be no longer together but she could pass it over easily. Reading to her favorite author, thinking about one the beautiful character she might play in his novels and get her prince charming.
Silly little girl, wanted everything the way she needed.

The Run before Her Wedding-1

It wasn't easy but time passed by with ticking clocks and brushing cool breeze on his tear sobbed face. He was standing in the darkest night of all times or his pain shuddered his eyesight to get the trace of those flickering distant candles burning in peace up above so high in the sky. He was obviously nauseous, shutting himself down to any logical reason that may come to him. That's obvious, for a fresh heart break, for a new found love that is there no more. He wasn't a sadist but certainly enjoyed the pity that a cleaved and betrayed heart must feel.
He just got off the one hour long call from a happy chat that went for more than days and it was about to complete its one month the next day. He was dumped. He cared nothing now, he wanted a plain answer from his One Love but she didn't answer. He knew that she wants himself to figure it out. And he also knows that it was all his fault if he chooses her point of view but he was helpless. He couldn't work out the details and kept on crying over the roof with sobbed face and wind brushing his face dry and the only other sound he heard was the tick of the wrist watch he was gifted. Gifted by her..!
He retired for the night alone. He was lonely within and thought it was better not to bother anybody else but to stay put. Least did he know, what he was doing was only damaging his mind, body and soul.
Days went by and each day he tried to seek another chance, just a way to get back with her. He knew she wants answers, results to be more precise which even she knew wasn't possible for him to give.
But he tried each day to convince her somehow that she's all that he had to be called his own, his love.
But she didn't melt. Her decision was firm now, her heart was cold to hear out any warm feelings he had for her.
And finally, they broke apart.
Story begins from this Cleaving Reality.