The Bereaved Joy

Sitting in the middle of a vast green land with kids all around playing and laughing out loud at their moments of carefree joy, when I can pretend to lose my memories and be moved by those innocent laughter of kids playing around.
Even when there is nothing positive to hold on, you can always turn to holding on to the kid inside you and you will find how beautiful it makes you feel. In this walk to adulthood, there are times when you actually think you want to be kept protected from those who keep pushing your strength low. Someone who can make you see the silver lining from within, your darkest closet is no more the safe haven but the compassion of that one person.
But what if, that special soul leaves you in the middle of the crossroad and expect you to deal with everything on your own. That is the time of self reclusion.